No Sleep Till Bedtime
I haven't been sleeping much lately.
I get up early, and go to bed late. Very late. Very, very, late. (2am is normal, 3:30 happens, 4:30 is rarer, but it also happens.)
Personally? I want to know who decided the day only needs 24 hours. I'd like to meet that person and shove their head into… something. It won't be nice. I'm feeling very violent right now — probably because I'm tired.
I'm sitting here yawning, and I have a million things to do.
I work full time. 9-5 (sometimes later), like most of us.
Yes, I have Thursdays and the weekends off — but I am also sharing a horse, which likes to get out on those days. Rain or shine. It's a bit of a drive to get there, then you go get the horse from the field, groom, ride, groom again, chuck her back in the field, clean the tack — before you know it, 5-6 hours are gone.
I have a commission for some artwork at the moment. Chalk up another few hours to work on that. Judged a contest, another few hours done. A few hospital appointments where they make you wait for hours… a trip to London to find out the office you need is closed… you name it. It all eats into your day.
I can't sleep unless I write at least a little bit. The trouble is, I can't just write a "little" bit. It's an all or nothing deal with me.
I get up early — and write some, until I have to run to work. Naturally I want to spend some time with my other half, even if it's just watching some TV and talking about our day.
Fact is, I'm always busy. If I want to write, I have to stay up later and get up earlier. Which is exactly what I've done the past few months — and now I'm tired.
I bite people's heads off when I'm tired. I'm short tempered, blow up easily, and I get incredibly frustrated. With everything. And everyone.
Right now, a deadline is looming and I'm waiting for people. And I blow up when they don't hurry up. I don't mean to (well, I do, in a way), or rather I don't mean to be nasty, but I can't help it.
I think I need a holiday where I can just… sleep! (Yeah, like that's going to happen.)
I'm planning to have an early night. Like I plan to have an early night, every night. It just never happens.
I'm going to sit down next week some time and prioritize. How do you manage your time?
Or don't you? (Like me!)
You know. The best thing about being a writer, bottom line, is that it's a solitary career. When all is said and done, writers are often people who work well on their own.
We stretch ourselves in order to grow… we join crit groups, writing forums, we learn to promote and market, we learn business savvy and correspondence. It's not easy, and you'll have to give yourself a break!!!!
Get some rest. We all have bad days. I know!!!
Penny Dune(Quote) (Reply)
Geez, I wish I had a way to prioritize my time better – but I just seem to go until I can't go no more…LOL. When my plots are not quite aligned, I don't sleep, but I write crap – so that's not the answer.
Maybe a nice glass of wine to relax the mind and the body?
Debora(Quote) (Reply)